Schizophrenics Reveal Their First Signs Of Losing Touch With Reality

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When it comes to the stigmas surrounding mental illness, we still have a long way to go. Several misconceptions about issues like bipolar disorder and schizophrenia continue to persist, so it’s important to keep a healthy conversation going.

Schizophrenia, in particular, has a pretty bad rep. It is a chronic mental disorder characterized by thoughts or experiences that are seemingly out of touch with reality. There is a long list of symptoms such as hallucinations, social isolation, aggression, and paranoia. So many people are living with this disorder, but unfortunately, it’s one of the mental illnesses that is spoken of the least.

People are struggling silently, out of fear of the public response. But with the internet, people can share their stories with greater confidence. Netizens worldwide shared their first signs that something was wrong, whether it was the emergence of a voice in their heads or seeing apparitions. Read on to hear some of the fascinating accounts from the victims of schizophrenia.

#47 Haunted By Shadows

It got to a point where I would lose sleep because I would always see these dark, shadowy figures in my room. Sometimes they would be lurking at the foot of my bed, sometimes they’d be standing in a random corner of my room, and sometimes they’d be hanging from the ceiling. It was hard to shut my eyes and ignore them. Whenever I opened my eyes, they would still be there.

What’s even creepier is that they wouldn’t move. They would just stare at me, dark and lifeless. I knew I needed help.

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#46 Aggressive Paranoia

I would get incredibly paranoid with my friends. Whenever I was around them, a voice in my head would always tell me that they were talking about me behind my back, or plotting some evil prank on me to humiliate me in front of everyone. There were times when I would aggressively pull someone by their arm and ask them, “WHAT ARE YOU UP TO?” They’d look at my totally shocked and frightened.

After a while, they just slowly started avoiding me. I think it was just easier for them to not be around someone like me.

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#45 It All Started With Depression

It’s hard to say when it started. I was very isolated at the time. I was just very confused, I think. More than hallucinations, I saw the meaning behind everything and every coincidence. What were those meanings? I didn’t really know. Eventually, I just decided it was my brain telling me I’m schizophrenic.

I went in for the treatment of depression and was in the psych ward for two weeks. Probably a month after that, I asked my doctor what was really wrong with me. It was pretty funny thinking back on it. I don’t know how she didn’t laugh in my face.

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#44 This Guy Thought Everybody Was Out To Get Him

As someone who has schizophrenia, reading about other peoples’ stories made me feel 5,000 times less alone than usual. That being said, for me, my mind would have me believe that all my friends were plotting against me. I started digging as hard as I could to find as much dirt on everyone as possible. Auditory hallucinations followed pretty quickly. At its worst, I began misremembering important life events, only to find out years later that what I felt I so vividly remembered to be true was actually not.

But I guess that’s psychosis for you. Meds, therapy, and a fiance and friends who have your back work wonders though. They don’t judge me when things get rough.

DarthNosrac

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#43 Where’s Will Smith When We Need Him To Talk To Aliens?

I thought I was an alien descended to earth to assist in saving humanity because a picture fell out of a book.

I thought if I ended myself, I could escape this realm and be back with my extraterrestrial family, which was the only place I thought I belonged.

In silence, it was like I could hear 1,000 different TV news broadcasts at once.

I was always being followed by a dark force.

I’m OK now.

onewaytojupiter

#42 There Is Always Time To Get Help

I started hearing voices when I was 16. It didn’t really affect me until I was about 24 or 25. When it did affect me, it knocked my whole life off course.

But to everyone who is going through something similar, you have time to get help. The earlier you catch it, the easier it is to keep from going down a dark path.

P-p-please

#41 Disabilities Aren’t Just Physical

For me, it was messages from Nemesis, the Greek goddess. I was convinced I was her chosen one to follow her. Also, I was constantly seeing shadow people.

I went into therapy thinking I was bipolar but ended up finding out I was schizophrenic. Luckily, I’m on medication and doing better. Nowadays, I struggle with the symptoms that even medicine can’t help me with, such as anxiety and depression.

Honestly, the stigma, plus having to explain to people why I’m jobless despite being a father and husband, is the worst part. I feel like a failure sometimes.

onekinkybunny

#40 Just A Teenager And It’s Already Starting

I’m 17 and I recently started hearing crowds cheering, people chatting, and jumbled radio broadcasts in silence. I always hear my name being called, or random phrases like, “Come on!” but no ones around.

young_roach

#39 “I Was Sure That An Evil Figure Was Watching Me From Inside”

I used to work maintenance at a private school. One week, the school was expecting a health and fire safety inspection, as some big event was scheduled for an upcoming Saturday afternoon. I worked 12 hours on Wednesday to go over everything, especially in the kitchen. Then, I worked 15 hours on Thursday to make sure all stained ceiling tiles were changed, all exit bulbs were working, and every closet was as clear and easy to walk in. On Friday, I worked 19 hours setting everything up for the events over the next few days. I hardly slept at all that week.

That same Friday night, I heard voices coming from the other rooms, even though I was the only one there. I was locking up, making sure no one was left behind inside.

I heard yelling and guttural sounds coming from the gym. As I walked the outside perimeter , I was sure that an evil figure was watching e from inside. When I was inside, I heard the ceiling cracking above me.

It wasn’t a good night.

Too_Many_Packets

#38 Thank You, Next

This sounds like a joke, but it’s my real advice:

If the shadow people start acknowledging you, maybe see a doctor. Otherwise, just get some sleep.

proheath

#37 Talk About Torture

It started with not needing to sleep as much. Countless days of being awake. Driving endlessly to pointless destinations. Disregarding police authority.

freemason85

#36 Post Malone And Taylor Swift Were Sending Codes

I started hearing songs on the radio and thought I was being given secret messages.

Five_Decades

#35 She Is OK Now

It happened quickly. Each morning I’d wake up hoping I’d be back to normal until I realized I was living in some kind of nightmare I couldn’t shake off.

The symptoms could only best be described as schizophrenia. I was overloaded with delusions—the radio and television were all giving me some kind of secret instructions or berating me and I even had trouble understanding people without misconstruing them. My behavior was strange, and I could tell I often didn’t make sense when I spoke. My friends described my face like a deer in headlights.

I believed I had developed magic powers and I was operating on another plane of existence. That was my rational as to why I could not relate to people anymore and was hearing messages. I knew something was terribly wrong but I didn’t know how to describe it or ask for help.

Eventually, I was forced into a group home and I slowly began to come out of it without any medical attention. It took a few months but I can only describe it as the fog slowly dissipating. I’d have moments of normality and clarity I would cling to. My brain somehow healed itself from what I think was some kind of a psychotic break that resembled schizophrenia.

]MissLizabeth

#34 Just Making Some DIY Clothing, Nothing To See Here

One guy claimed he was hearing people machine gun sounds down the hall. The doctor looked into it and found out he was hearing a sewing machine.

_AlreadyTaken_

#33 Call Theresa Caputo!

Diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar here (basically I have both schizophrenia and bipolar disorder).

It started when I was five years old. I would see dead people, “feel” the presence of ghosts, smell rust and metals, and hear the voices and thoughts of other people.

As a teenager, I thought I was a psychic.

As an adult, I started a job as a psychic medium. I legit thought I could predict the future.

One day, I just decided I was crazy and got a psych evaluation. I’ve been on medication ever since and I’ve been super grounded.

My major triggers are fourth-wall-breaking video games and TV shows. The Truman Show is also horrifying for me.

LeCopywriter_

#32 It’s an endless cycle

Every time I feel like I’m about to go into another episode, I can smell an insane amount of iron and foulness. At that point, I realize that it’s time to slow it down, eat solid food, and rest. I try not to dive into depression.

GRANDangeles

#31 Maybe It Was The Hash Slinging Slasher

The first sign was when I could hear people planning to do things to me. Any sounds that were not loud enough for me to hear were automatically murder plots, according to the voice in my head.

The second sign was feeling bugs crawling on me at all times. Of course, when I looked, there were no bugs and the feelings went away. But this often kept me up at night. I was convinced there were thousands of insects on my skin.

The third sign was the need to run away. I would skip from town to town because I had a bad feeling. Paranoia. Anger. Everyone was against me.

goodandgloom

#30 They Suffered From Auditory Hallucinations

I’ve had auditory hallucinations as ever since I was little. I’ll hear music or talking when I get to the “bridge” of falling asleep. Other than that, I’ve experienced very few visual hallucinations that would only last for a short period before going away.

Passthedrugs

#29 DJ!!

I used to hear my mom say “DJ‼️” (my name) right in my ear when nobody was there. Sometimes, it wasn’t even her voice. I could never relax when it was happening.

yee1017

#28 This Would Be A Fascinating Book

The first signs came after I was introduced to the Bible. I would open the Bible on my phone and would scroll through the books until I received stings that were from God, chapter and verse. Eventually, I could hear voices of people in my head that I knew and would have complete conversations with them.

It eventually turned into some crazy supernatural trip. It was so detailed that I could easily write a book about all the things I was convinced of and what I could do.

Cowey216

#27 “There Is Hope.”

For me, it started with derealization and depersonalization. I started seeing spiders all over the walls and thinking that aliens were trying to abduct me. Once they got me to the hospital and into treatment, I did much better. I’m actually off all my meds now and doing pretty good as far as my delusions but my life is also in a much better place. There is hope.

BillyGoatPilgrim

#26 Sounds Like A Bad Game Of Sims

I became convinced that the universe was a Matrix-like simulation and that I was some kind of “main character,” if you will. I wouldn’t face any negative consequences for my actions since I was destined to “win.” I stopped going to my job, but I didn’t mention it to my fiance. I’d just head out in the morning and go mess around for eight hours. I’d had a fairly conservative upbringing and had only ever been intimate with my fiance, which I decided wasn’t fair. So I set about trying to sleep with as many women as possible. I slept with about five women during this episode, and at the time felt zero remorse.

I also sometimes think back to my behavior during that time and question things like my self-identity or the idea. In my normal state, I’m a somewhat quiet and unassuming guy, but deluded me was a charming, confident devil who took risks and always knew what to say to women. Kind of scary honestly.

Crazymidwesterner

#25 Big Brother Is Watching

I didn’t have hallucinations, but I had delusions. I had to cover up my webcam on my laptop because I believed I was being spied through it. That was probably the first sign. I then took the batteries out of my smoke detector because I believed it had hidden microphones in it. I became convinced I was “tracked” online. Soon, I started getting “hidden messages” in music and videos. I thought music videos made by celebrities were about me.

I also believed people were out to get me. I thought people walking in the same direction as me on the street were “following me.” I was hospitalized multiple times. I wanted it to stop.

There was no talking me out of my delusions. I believed them 100% as if they were a religious belief. They weren’t logical either. Even when I would admit that I couldn’t “prove” what I believed, I still believed it and thought everyone else was wrong.

Suzina

#24 It Is Never Too Late To Get Help

The first sign for me was seeing two of my best friend in her house when I came over. There were several times during the middle of the night when I would get so freaked out by them that I’d call my parents to pick me up, and we lived a city away.

During high school, I would fall asleep in class and while standing up in the halls. Then, I’d start to hear my name being called randomly and it would make me jump at how sudden it was. I started thinking something paranormal was stalking me. I’d hear creaks and bumps in the house, and the smell dead things when no one was home.

In senior year, I started detaching from my friends. I just got more irritated at things. I had one episode where I thought something was in my house that was really trying to hurt me. I ran out of the house and to the streets, convinced that anyone that came near me was out to get me. When that ended, I realized I wasn’t normal. Something was off, but I still didn’t do anything until about half a year into working at my job. I was getting burnt out fast because I kept thinking my clients could hear my thoughts and would follow me home after my shift ended.

the-lodger

#23 “The Aliens Put A Device In Here”

It started off with physical hallucinations—small stuff like the feeling of spiders on me. But then it became worse, like feeling a rope around my neck and hearing voices whispering jibberish in my ear. These were inconvenient but didn’t really mess with my life.

One morning, I woke up because I heard a beep. The first thought in my head was, “The aliens put a device in here to record me.” I spent about an hour looking for it before I realized I was being crazy. This happened a bit for a couple of years.

AerialSnack

#22 Like The Alfred Hitchcock Movie

Seeing birds in my peripheral vision constantly.

PunkGodRick

#21 Time Just Vanished

I started seeing faces in everything. I thought I had some special mission or purpose. When extremely sad, I would spend hours daydreaming of myself in some alternate world. I also experienced missing time.

I00I00I00

#20 Maybe They Will Be The Next Steve Jobs

The first signs were grandiose beliefs in myself, thinking I would be a revolutionary Steve-Jobs-type person, thinking people on TV were giving me deep messages, thinking the thoughts in my head were being broadcast to other people I looked at.

EndMyTorment

#19 Imagine Not Being Able To Trust Yourself

I have delusions—paranoid ones. I don’t want to get into detail, but there are times where I am aware that I’m having delusions, but I can’t trust myself.

billc1pher

#18 Little Creepy, Not Going To Lie

When my brother starts going off the rails, he laughs and laughs, like doubled over; uncontrollably. At least he’s having a good time.

DJKobuki

#17 It’s Not Crazy; It’s An Illness

It’s hard to tell when your crazy because it seems normal. I thought I was God and could change dimensions at will, and the scariest thing was I almost could. I would feel sensations that are very hard to describe. An example would be my thoughts would spiral up like a radio tower through my head and float above me. Or I felt a giant winged bug in my chest instead of my lungs for a couple seconds. It sounds crazy but I really felt sensations like this.

24karrott

#16 She Thought There Were Hidden Cameras Everywhere

My best friend got very paranoid. She was convinced her roommate was putting cameras up in the apartment (this was in 2005, so well before they were affordable). She said people were following her. Knowing what we do now, these were red flags. Problem was, she was always kind of dippy and the change in her behavior was so slight that I don’t think there was any way we could have known. She had her first break about five months later.

spinderella1780

#15 “Nothing Anyone Said Could Calm Me Down Or Convince Me Otherwise”

My first sign was when I started feeling frightened in my house and I heard unusual sounds. There was a feeling that I was being watched and something was outside my window trying to get in.

Another sign is when I start hearing voices in things like the air conditioner or the radiator. This one is mostly manageable. I can convince myself to ignore the sounds because I can logically remind myself that radiators and air conditioners don’t talk.

Being convinced that people are coming into my apartment is incredibly problematic though because, in one episode of psychosis that I don’t entirely remember, my parents became so concerned that they called 911. Police walked right into my place because I left the door unlocked.

At one point, I also became convinced that the government was after me and trying to ruin my life, which ended up leading to me spend a week under psychiatric observation. That one was honestly the worst because nothing anyone said could calm me down or convince me otherwise. This went on for weeks.

SuspiciousGloryHole

#14 He Thought People Were Listening Through The Phone

My uncle was convinced someone tapped his phone and was listening to him. Then there would be random people that could be anywhere he was and he’d just start accusing them of being the “spies.” He wouldn’t confront them; he would just tell us and of course, we’d deny it and try to get his mind off of it.

Teddevil

#13 Like When The Demogorgon Tried To Attack Joyce Beyers

Hearing voices whispering at night in bed and seeing faces in the walls.

furrrsurre

#12 Burning Freckles And Baboons In The Lab

My boyfriend’s first signs involved him sensing beings in his room while he was going to sleep. He would see something out of the corner of his eye and think, is there a baboon in the lab?! But then when he would turn to look, he would realize it was just a student.

Later on, there were a lot of obsessive behaviors. Burning off freckles thinking they were cancerous, boiling a toothbrush if it fell on the counter, making me repeat reassuring words for hours, etc.

YoureNotAClownFish

#11 Can’t Imagine How Horrifying This Must Be

Whenever I’m about to fall asleep, I hear some demonic voice screaming my name. Scares the heck outta me every time.

squirttleturtle

#10 This Husband Transformed At Night Like A Werewolf

I never noticed the early signs in my husband at the time, but looking back he’d often get a really weird look on his face and ask if I’d heard certain sounds. I always just thought he was being silly, so I’d laugh and say no.

Then, it began to happen with visuals too. He’d start to get really freaked out and I’d ask what was wrong and he’d say, “Did you see that?” I’d say no and he’d try and play it off like he’d been joking. Eventually, he’d start having complete breaks from reality, usually after the sun went down. He’d act kind of off during the day and I knew what was coming that night.

As for early detection, it’s kind of hard to say. I guess if you’re hearing or seeing things you know aren’t there, that might be a good indicator.

inangijala

#9 He Could Hear People On The Street Talking About Him

It scared me when my friend had his first delusional episode while driving with me in the car. I could tell he suddenly looked antsier. He suddenly swerved and pulled the car over to the side of the road and looked at me. I thought he was going to hurt me. He got out of the car and started harassing two young teenage girls, asking them if they were talking about him. I sat there bewildered and made hand signs to the girls to leave.

DownvoteDaemon

#8 Breakable Skin

It feels like I have marbles for skin and I hate it.

Zebulen15

#7 The Sixth Sense

My daughter has seen dead people since she was about five. Now she is 13 and she constantly tells me that a man is following her and wants to hurt her. Her birth mum had schizophrenia and I don’t know if genetics plays a part. I am so worried for her right now. Seeing her so terrified and not being able to help is horrible.

bigmama1798

#6 They Are Called Delusions For A Reason

My delusions were telling me to do something really embarrassing. When the song “Don’t Speak” by No Doubt came on, I thought the song was telling me to do the embarrassing thing. My delusions were actually pretty evil. I’ve heard some psychotics have really nice delusions, which I envy. I never had that. Mine were very selfish and pushed me to do self-destructive things.

Five_Decades

#5 Even Twitter Isn’t Safe

I thought Conor McGregor was sending me secret messages through Twitter.

justjiggerypokery

#4 Dogs Spoke English To This Person

When dogs barked, I actually heard my name. Same with birds. A lot of scary things came from this.

tinybirdblue

#3 The Phone That Never Stops Ringing

I can feel my phone vibrating in my pants pocket when my phone isn’t even in my pants pocket. I’ve also put on headphones, started playing a video game, figured the music was a little too quiet for my taste, turned the volume up, and then realized the headphones weren’t even on and the sound was completely off. Suddenly, the music in my head stops.

agnostic_science

#2 Mental Illness Affects Loved Ones Too

I occasionally see things that don’t exist and hear people calling my name who aren’t there. Apparently, I’m at risk of developing schizophrenia later in life and my girlfriend isn’t interested in me not working because she wants to be able to stay at home with the kids when we have them. There is a real possibility I might wind up unable to work outside the home. I am currently in school for a skill I can do from home if need be but I’m afraid of what might happen if I ever progress so far that I am unable to work. She is skilled enough she can easily support us all but I’m worried about the resentment she’ll feel toward me as a result.

payperplain

#1 His Mind Put Him In Danger

I started hearing the voices of people I knew calling my name when they couldn’t possibly be around me. Like, I would hear the voice of a family member or friend that lived three hours away by car.

Then, I started seeing objects, often while driving. Once on a lonely Nebraska night, a giant radio tower suddenly appeared in front of me in the road and then dissipated when I drove through it. I also saw silhouettes of people occasionally.

The worst visual I have gotten was a very real-looking man trying to break into my house during the day. It freaked me out. Happened twice.

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